Waiting

It would be completely ignorant to not acknowledge that the Lord is doing a new thing in our nation … and with this, I have felt a sense of frustration and urgency to be a part of His work.

To not “miss the moment”. I see so many people being released into their calling and destinies, walking in faith and experiencing the fulness of life that Jesus promised us in His word. I know that I have tasted of His presence, and I know that I have been exposed to many of the amazing testimonies of what He currently is doing. And He really, really, really is doing something new. On the one hand, I am exceptionally excited to be alive, to be in South Africa, and to be positioned where I am.

On the other hand, I have not yet felt the sense of calling that I believe is critical and detrimental to step out in any ministry. Sometimes, I feel like He is allowing me to see glimpses of what life could be like if I could just let go of “security.” I get to “play” in the courts of the King while the “grown-ups” do the important work 🙂

I know I am special, I know I am loved, I know I am being prepared. But I also know that, when I step out into the wide spaces that He has, I will not do it because I feel like I am being left behind, and therefor I need to make something happen. Jesus said “Without Me, you can do nothing.”

Lord, let me be faithful in the little, but let not my own “small-mindedness” limit what You want for my life. In Jesus Name.